Proverbs 4:23
Some of you might be wondering on how I was lately; this post was meant to be published weeks ago since the first moment I feel better. However I keep waiting to feel even better, and now is a great time since I have a deadline to post something next week (excuses, I know, sorry ´･_･`) and of course, I've calmed down even more ☻
I had my mourning time and I'm aware it will not benefit myself or other to keep myself in that state. It IS easier to keep sulking,living in memories and losing someone so dear to our heart is no one ever wish for, but when God says the path is over, it should and all out for good.
Looking deeper to my heart, I lifted gratitude for keeping my heart safe in Him. When death keep us apart from people we love, God give us clarity that we've equipped well from those who left this world. The moments shared together in the past will helps in the upcoming days.
Unlike to bid farewell or keep our distance to those who are not meant to have their path crossed with our anymore, this can be trickier. Whether to keep pushing on because we love them so much even though God has end the chapter to keep our heart whole or really just walk away from them and trust God. Hey this might be worth its own post later, I'll keep in mind to this :)
Now I want to shout out my grateful heart; I have been VERY BLESSED to have aunty in my life. Not as just someone I passed by on the street who greet and compliment me, regular customer who keep making conversation in every visit, co-worker who help make the workplace so enjoyable, or just people I meet on regular basis to share stories and meal with. She is the second mother figure who love me as much as she could. This place in my heart will be her forever and I will remember her vibrant spirit to oomph my day along with the daily grace.
Not to the least all credit goes to friends and families who prayed and calmed me down during the difficult time. To those who pray for me directly or without me knowing (but I can feel!), I really appreciate your thoughtful heart and I'm glad you're all there for me. Also to my employer for the thoughtful and kind words the first day I went back to work and keep me busy so my mind didn't goes around galau*. 💛
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Ps. I'm not always can tell when someone pray for me without me knowing, but yeah sometime I do, isn't it just pure awesomeness ?
*sad for no reason, or overthinking -Indonesian slang
