This is from my past for my present and future
and for those who can relate to this
and whoever with their curiosity who just
simply want some readings
all your judgement, if there is any, will
not harm me much
…yeah maybe just a bit, like a noise that
I can shut easily
Growing up,
I do not
really have the figure to look up to, I pretty much figure things out by
myself. I still give credits to those who made me who I am today though, but it
is not quite similar.
I got into
many new environments where I was always the new kid among others. Some stories
went ugly, some are okay.
I was told that I’m not up to the standard people call pretty by
the person who is dear to me. Words – are – just – tremendously – powerful –
guys.
The thought of giving up passed me by quite early. I know, I am
not the only one. Sometimes it just hurt that bad.
Now that I get mature, I figure out that
My story is
for me only to live on, God knows my capacity to keep on going. Some people can
either underestimate or overestimate it.
I.do.not.care. People are not a qualified judge.
So these are for days to come when I do not feel like it,
Hey, me
You are
blessed even without the figure you are craving for, you turned out not bad.
You have The Figure no one can steal, that stays eternal, where you feel the
safest and can feel home just anywhere.
Do not
worry about new things, yes it will be all the awkwardness in the beginning.
But new stories to learn are coming though. This life is all about blessings,
really, to enjoy what you love and learn on becoming an even better myself.
Still, it is a matter of your choice. Do you really want to get better? Or
maybe it just not your place to do it? Or it is a matter of diligence,
perseverance? If things went wrong, you know what you are supposed to do and
where to get help. Please do make good choice, stop hurting yourself, even with
slight bad thought. Even when it does pay a visit, remember, you are
well-equipped in this journey. In days to come, you will be thankful and felt
strong for have been though those moments.
Eyes are
more often to look on others, not on yourself. You only get to see yourself two
times; in pictures and mirror reflection. Remember on yourself when you get to
see the sparks on the eyes when others are talking about what they love and the
genuine curves on the faces that you find beautiful. You know beyond those that
please your eyes, there are those heart-warming people whose spirit will live
on forever in your heart, even for just some moments, it is a gem. So, even it
is not all that physical, do not forget personal grooming and pay respect to
places you are going to accordingly.
Giving up
sounds easy, but you will no longer have the change to go backwards and earn
forgiveness from beating it over too soon from God’s plan. Aside from the
burden from losing you, you might never know on how someone actually care that
much. People think, love, and do things differently. You might not care for
those that insignificant to you, but for those who are or maybe kind of, but
does not really get along. Learn to learn their love language. You will never
know, life might be just about to get better afterwards. When no one else doubt
you, never doubt yourself. You have your own place in this world. Keep
discovering things and let to be led rightfully. Or maybe led others? Haha,
again, who knows?
You are blessed beyond measure. Now when you get to read this
again in bad days, I hope I just get better by now.
And this little bit for bad days as well,
I cannot prevent you from having a visit, but I know, I will get
better
and thank you for the lessons.
♥
keep it safe - Prov 4:23
